Saturday, August 30, 2008

The Road thus Traveled

Where do I begin? Colton is 10 1/2 months old now and honestly, I don't know how I have maintained my sanity this long. 1- it has flown by. 2- I've taken it day by day. 3- I really DO need a break and 4- Hoping for number 2. I nutz or what? I keep thinking that he needs to have a sibling..what is childhood and life without a sibling? I don't know anyone who is an only child...I am one of five. Can I handle it, honestly? I have no clue, but hell I can give it a shot but I can't go back once it's done...hmm.

My husband is basically no help whatsoever when it comes to Colton. He said it was my idea, therefore my responsibility 24/7. Argh. I know he loves him to pieces, he just has a hard time because Colton doesn't know what is wrong, what annoys Daddy and so on. Will it get better? Should I bring another one into this? I so miss the baby stage...and here I was a mere 3 months ago saying no way in hell. Hah.

Down to the nitty gritty of it. I still nurse Colton at least 5 times a day and don't believe I've gotten my cycle when could this happen? I don't know and I do want them close in age so we only have so long..I'm not getting any younger either in my mind. I just turned 26. We want to be free from children when we hit 45ish. So yea..this is my story, a place to vent and warned.

Colton...9 months old in pic